What?!

A new phenomenon in my life......I am worth it! My friendship is valuble, My husband chose me for a reason, I have place, value and standing in this life and to my Jesus who loves me so much He went to the cross for my sin. How beautiful it is to trust this truth.
I havent always trusted this and I know there will be plenty of days to come that I dont trust this. But its true, weather I choose to beleive it or not, its so so true. I get to rest in the love of my place as a daughter of the king of the universe. And when I trust in His love for me, I can so easily accept others love for me an I can love others out of his love for me. What a beautiful gift he has given.

29.....

Tomorrow we get to celebrate my amazing husband. We get to take a day and spend the whole day affirming who he is and celebrating his life. I feel like the luckiest woman in the entire world, that I get to be married to James. James is a man who continually serves. He has an endless supply of paitence and he is someone who is not quick to anger. He looks at life objectivly and honestly lives for the benefit of others. He deeply cares for those he loves and he longs for people to know the Jesus he knows. He is a man who is full of knowledge and incredibly gifted and you would never know. His life is one that is humbly lived. He never asks for much and he always gives all of him. I love my husband, I love days of the year that are all about him. I love to go all out and celebrate all that he is. I love that our kids get so excited and that they get to love their daddy. I feel so fortunate some days that this is my life. It feels too good to be true most of the time. Of course there are hard days but because my husband has led our family out of LOVE and he has made love more important than any object or thing. He has always worked so hard to provide so that I can stay home with our precious children. He works incredibly hard and doesnt miss a beat taking over loving our kids as soon as he gets home. He is a beautiful picture of Jesus to our family.

James, my life is better because of you. My life with you is full and sweet and rich and spontanious and fun. You bring a smile to my face that no one else in this world will ever be able to do. You give me reason to love and be loved. You teach me how to think through life and how to love with no expectations. You know who you are and you are not afraid of that. You are trusting what is true about you.

On top of all of this, I am so lucky that I get a man like YOU to be the father to my children. You are a dad through and through. You are not afraid to dress like a princess and have a tea party, you enjoy wrestling on the floor with your kids, you change diapers, watch silly moives, wake up at night, give baths, play and play, feed our littles and you LOVE them. I know they will have the best memories of their daddy when they grow up. And I know they have good memories of their daddy now. Sometimes I even get jealous of your relationship with our kids. They know they can trust you. They know you protect them and they know they are incredibly safe with YOU. That is because you have built these things through relationship. You never take advantage of your position over them, you always respect who they are and you always make them and their feelings way more important than being right.

I love you James Waddell. I love this life with you. I love learning from you, being loved by you, trusted by you and protected by you. My heart is softer because of you. You have loved me the best way anyone ever has. You know all of me and you love me more. I dont know how taht is possible, but you do. I look forward to many more birthdays to celebrate you. You are a good good man. I hope you feel as loved as you are as we celebrate all that you are. Happy Birthday sweet husband of mine.